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i dont even know.
maybe theres something wrong.
suddenly, i dont feel like its worth it to try anymore. what else is there? im just not the kind of person who has the motivation to study, okay? people are lazy, and im human.
ive had enough. school, college, job. this world revolves around money. hobos are the way they are because they have no money, but i dont want to be a hobo. does that mean i have to work hard? yeah, it sure does. but is that seriously worth it?
if i had my way, i would stay 14 forever. i would freeze life around these few years--so its not like im the only one who cant age on. i like the people around me, i guess. i have those friends who i honestly love. my best friend, i wouldnt be the same without her. there are people who mean a lot to me. my family, too; im scared as hell for the day my parents arent alive anymore, because then id really have the grow up.
i dont want to grow up.
i want to stay like this.
but then again, i dont want to stay like this.
where the fuck am i going?
its just my luck that my hobby and the thing im best at--writing--turns out to be something that i cant make a living out of. really, why couldnt i have been hella good at, like, architecture or computer programming or something? why fine arts? everyone knows no one can live off of art or literature. youre either doomed, or extremely popular like JK Rowling. or youre that person who decided to try to become an author, and now youre scraping money out of every corner trying to stay alive. i dont want to be that.
i dont want to live in this world.
is there any point?
its all useless.
where the hell is the beauty?
is this the reality you wanted?
maybe theres something wrong.
suddenly, i dont feel like its worth it to try anymore. what else is there? im just not the kind of person who has the motivation to study, okay? people are lazy, and im human.
ive had enough. school, college, job. this world revolves around money. hobos are the way they are because they have no money, but i dont want to be a hobo. does that mean i have to work hard? yeah, it sure does. but is that seriously worth it?
if i had my way, i would stay 14 forever. i would freeze life around these few years--so its not like im the only one who cant age on. i like the people around me, i guess. i have those friends who i honestly love. my best friend, i wouldnt be the same without her. there are people who mean a lot to me. my family, too; im scared as hell for the day my parents arent alive anymore, because then id really have the grow up.
i dont want to grow up.
i want to stay like this.
but then again, i dont want to stay like this.
where the fuck am i going?
its just my luck that my hobby and the thing im best at--writing--turns out to be something that i cant make a living out of. really, why couldnt i have been hella good at, like, architecture or computer programming or something? why fine arts? everyone knows no one can live off of art or literature. youre either doomed, or extremely popular like JK Rowling. or youre that person who decided to try to become an author, and now youre scraping money out of every corner trying to stay alive. i dont want to be that.
i dont want to live in this world.
is there any point?
its all useless.
where the hell is the beauty?
is this the reality you wanted?
this is for myself.
read it if you want.
keep in mind im not in the best mood rn.
T_________T
brownie points if you know which popstar said that last line. (googling it shouldnt be too hard, right?)
you can also find out how old i am/my birthday, if you were bored enough to try.
meh.
read it if you want.
keep in mind im not in the best mood rn.
T_________T
brownie points if you know which popstar said that last line. (googling it shouldnt be too hard, right?)
you can also find out how old i am/my birthday, if you were bored enough to try.
meh.
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couldn't have said it better myself.